A Few Saturday Thoughts

I love days like these, even if they make me feel like I'm the most unproductive person on the face of the earth. I like relaxing. I kind of wish I was more of that 'LETS GO OUT AND ADVENTURE AND HAVE A LOT OF FUN EVERYDAY' person. I guess I can be like that sometimes, but other times I just loooove to hang out inside. I'm trying to be more of that person, especially after seeing Yes Man. Maybe it's dumb to be inspired by a movie like that... but I was. Don't judge me :) So I thought it was pretty cool to take opportunities like that (maybe not ALL opportunities) but the good ones, and it has really made my life more interesting.

My bestfriend Lauren and I have started a list of things that we've never done that we want to do before we go away to college. Not like, HUUUUGE things, but just fun random things like sitting on a rooftop, salsa dancing at Gloria's, donut someone, etc. We do new things almost every time we're together. I love it :) So, I guess I just want to spice it up a bit and be more adventurous and not lame.

On another note.. I'm happier than I've ever been before. I mean, not all the time.. but most of the time I am. It's weird that things can change like this because I decided to do the one thing I never thought I could do... Let go. I am so much happier and I don't think I could have had this strength if I hadn't chosen to let go. Another thing that I didn't realize has changed me is my 21 day fast that ends TOMORROW! yay for bread, sweets, & caffeine again! :) but this fast has helped me turn more towards God than towards food when I need help. It's like.. If I need some toast to start my day, my fast has been the chance for me to trust God to get my day started. God loves me and my heart. I have grown from this experience, seeing as it has been my first fast. It was quite difficult, but completely worth it. It's fun to challenge yourself and to make promises to yourself that you KNOW will be impossible to break beacuse if you do, you'll feel completely guilty. I'm proud of myself and the past 20 days. I found out something during this fast that I know I couldn't have handled well if I hadn't been in this state in my life. It really helped me with handling news I never thought I'd be able to feel happy about. Instead of drowning in tears, I was filled with joy. I am so happy that I felt this way and I knew it had to be because of everything I'd done when I let go of the person and things that were holding me back.

I'm thankful for the new year and the new opportunities I'm going to be able to have.

lovelovelove

-B-