It has been a little over a week since I've been home from New Mexico. Am I excited to be home? Honestly, no. I feel like a part of me is missing every morning when I wake up. I truly didn't think it would affect me this way, but it has. This summer brought so many trials, convictions, and frustrations to my life. Most of the time I felt like I was taking two steps in the wrong direction. I can't say it was always easy, but I can say that it was worth it. If I had the choice, I would go back and do it all over again. The heartaches, the crying, the fighting, the lack of sleep, all of it. It was one of those situations where the good always outweighed the bad. It was amazing how the Lord worked in me while I was there trying to become a servant. I learned more about myself during those three months than I have in the last year. Truthfully, not all good things... and most are things that I need to fix, but I am thankful that the Lord revealed those characteristics to me so that I can make that change and become the woman of the Lord that He has called me to be. Would I recommend everyone to go somewhere unfamiliar for three months and serve? Absolutely. 100%. Go! I wouldn't change those experiences for the anything.
So, I'm back. Waiting for the next thrilling adventure in my life. So far the only thing that has happened is my speeding ticket. Therefore, I am currently in the midst of defensive driving and my room still looks like a tornado. Goal-- leave in the next 4-5 hours to go back to College Station. That's an adventure in itself! But even still, I can't help but be thankful for the opportunity to be going back to school, living with three amazing girls, and getting more involved in Aggie Sisters for Christ. As hard as my life is while I struggle with sin, frustration, and fear... the Lord is good. I know that He has an amazing plan for this school year. I know it and I can't wait to see what He brings forth. I wish I was a good writer and could write some heartfelt blog about how awesome He is.. but that's all there is to it. He is wonderful and just. He is always on time, even when we think He has forgotten. I take that for granted a lot of the time and wish things could go my way even though when I take matters into my own hands, my world turns upside down. I am holding steadfast to the Truth and ready to take on some thrilling adventures this year!
"Lord, if You have something else planned, take Your dreams and run with it."
Gig 'Em and God Bless!