On another note, I hate fighting. Especially when I have good intentions. I don't ever try and argue with people unless 1. I know I'm right or 2. I really care about the subject/person. In this case, it's number 2. I also hate that the day after you fight with someone, 50 things happen that you NEED to text them about but can't. I didn't say all of those things because I wanted to attack you or question your character or even judge the life you live, I did it because as a sister in Christ, I am called to love you like the Lord does and I felt that I needed to tell you the things I did. I know you may not agree with that or whatever, but I care about you and where you spend eternity and I also don't think that type of situation should get in the way of our friendship. I'm sorry if I've made your life complicated.
I need to keep reminding myself that the Lord takes care of me right where I'm at and not where I need to be. I know that He has my best interest at heart. Lord, please bring me peace this holiday season as I go through this time without some loved ones and in the midst of a broken friendship. Please keep your hand on those who cannot be here with us and those who don't know You this season.